Memento Matri Mori
Arisen from my fear of dementia.
An ongoing multimedia archive built around the creative processing of ‘mapping’ my mother. As I grew up with anxiety from a young age, I grew a fear of ‘losing my mom’ in memory. My repressive coping mechanisms made it harder for me to hold on to certain memories and it fed my fear of dementia. Out of this, I started capturing my mother in multiple media and ‘scenarios’. One of these is the scenario in which I imagine a world in which she has come to pass, hence the title of the main video: Memento Matri Mori
The Caregiver
At some point in my research, I framed my mother in the archetype of The Caregiver and brought together my hypothetical scenario of her already having passed away in an exhibition as an ‘ode to her life’.
On the left, you see a snippet from the making of a sari fabric for my mom to be draped in for her cremation, covered in my writing and symbols. The writing was meant as an open confession to my mom, revealing my gratitude and appreciation, but also my resentment and anger.